Metta

Metta towards myself is difficult, I don't know why but it is. I have been listening to a talk on the mettabhavan by Kamalshila and his has helped. The main point I picked up was that we have to start where we are, yes I know this is said often at beginners classes etc. but it didn't sink in what was actual meant by this. I think I have been expecting to much, a great surge of Metta to everything and everyone. Well this is not going to happen! small crumb like moments of just liking myself will have to do, well for now. These I will keep safe and look after just like a small cutting of a delicate plant. Soft hands, soft minds, warm hearts.

metta