.....but I know I have said in the past that life is just moment by moment, and I stand by that, but I do find myself planning what I should do in the future. The future which is not present, not happening. This all stems from are new sangha night study theme, Bhantas system of meditation, and last weeks section of Mindfulness with Breathing by Bikku Buddhahassa which Buddhashanti explored. I really got a lot out of it and have been keen to add it to my daily mediation. The thing is it just hasn't been as good as last Tuesday, same cushions, same process no where near the same experience! Now I know that they can't be identical, no two moments are the same but something similar would be nice. Yes I can hear you shouting at me, supportive conditions. On Tuesday before going into the section on the mindfulness with breathing we have already meditated for forty minutes, and had a Dharma talk from Buddhashanti so the second sit was always going to be better because I was more integrated and aware and just down right happy! So this morning just to sit with the minimal of prep, no surprise it was patchy to say the least. So to the plan. Well its not a plan, its more getting the most out of the time I have put aside for my meditation. Bhanta says that we should evaluate everything, test it out, is it skillful or not skillful, is it helping me develop spiritually or not.
Now you have to be careful here, this is not a way to drop things we don't like, infact its the things we find uncomfortable which some time do us good, What are you going to put at the center of your personal mandala? Well Ive put the Buddha and going out from there all the things with are suportive to my practice. If you think about it an sure you will be able to imagine your own. So am being reallistic about what I can achive and when, how much effort I need and not to become to down hearted
See you tomorrow, see planning again!
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